fresh start and fresh flowers:

i will now be blogging here

Went for brunch with the bestie at habitat today!!!!!!!! Love that girl so much aaah. We had eggs ben, churros, tea, hazelnut coffee and salad and I was bursting at the end of the meal. It was a short but nice catch up with her!

I am broke beyond words. Like today I only had 20 bux in my pouch which I used to pay for brunch. And my ez link only has 0.27 cents which couldn't even bring me to Marymount (where I was supposed to meet Sara). So Shannon gave her all her coins to take bus (too lazy to walk) and I was so touched :')))))

Boarded the bus and tried my luck and tapped my card but it became a really embarrassing moment because the machine flashed a red "INVALID CARD" and made a really horrible BEEP BEEP BEEP sound.

Asked the uncle if I could pay in cash to Marymount and he told me it will cost me 1.10 BUT I ONLY HAD 60 CENTS

So I was like wah fts have to get off the bus and walk then the uncle was like "EH MISS MISS NEVERMIND"

I WAS SO TOUCHED WAH

Ok then went for first Arrow service (was late) and it's always nice to be in the house of God. A few things to remember:

1. It is the year of greater glory
2. He is perfect in His season
3. Don't worry, trust in Him
4. He knows better than I know

Went to eat subway with Sara, Victor and Javier after and daddy fetched me home.

Went with mommy to pick the bros from swimming but before that she decided to give me a Starbucks treat plus sushi treat and she told me to stop going out so much cause she misses having dinner with me. 😂😂😂

Even though I always quarrel with my mom (only because we are too similar), I love her like crazy.

And tonight daddy had some function and the bros went to ahma's house to sleep so the mother declared it GURLZ NITE so we did mask and talked about anything and everything and watched a movie.

Greaaaaaat Saturday ;-)

2013

I look back on 2013 with much ambivalence.

2013 passed by acceleratingly fast and honestly it doesn't feel like it even happened.

But last night I synced all the photos from my phone onto my mac and I watched events after events unfold.

Some highlights: first day of school (where my table was flooded with gifts and food from all around the world), zonals, U17 trails, sleepovers, seeing Lawson live, Valentine's day, Maldives, 16th birthday, Kinder's unfortunate unfortunate accident ( :'(((((( ), started going to church more regularly, got closer to God, made amazing friends (VICTOR), O's, prom, graduating from St Nicks, Racial Harmony Day, IJ Fiesta, MBS, seeing TW live, spending NYE with my fav concert buddies, spending NYE with my fav band, christmas, america, hong kong, and much much much more, little things like night walks with Kinder, night runs with Teri, watching the sunrise, watching the sunset, watching rain fall, lit nights with tea and candles, etc.

I am contented. I haven't became the person I set to become but I know I'm slowly but surely getting there.

Friends, thank you for making 2013 2013.

I want to turn my life around

I love my mommy so much

I love my grandma so much. I love how she loves me the most, I love how when I'm with her, I feel important, like for once, I matter. I love how she spoils me, and how no matter how old I am, with her I feel like I'm a kid again, cradled in her arms, running around in her garden, eating ba hu with porridge with her in her room.

Yesterday when I went to her house, she brought me to her closet and took out this ladybug stapler she got from her recent trip to Hong Kong and said "Shh, don't show people."
When I got out of her closet, my aunt was like "Eh! What colour is your stapler?" And I saw that my cousin's one was a cat, and my other cousin's one was also a cat, and both my brothers' ones were cats too. And I just felt so special you know? And it feels nice.

I love her ( and I don't ever want to lose her )

So many things happened in the last few days so let me just quickly note it down least I forget

1. The year is ending, it really is. And my secondary school life has ended too. Along with many other things. Growing up is difficult and scary but so so liberating.

2. We had grad night on Wednesday and everyone looked beautiful. I mean it. I was smiling throughout the whole night and relishing in how good everyone looked. The night was lovely. We sang the school song so loudly and said the pledge with all our heart and danced the family dance (my favourite dance on earth) in heels and held each other and sang to Hold On To Our Dream (IJ friends are friends for life, indeed). Then it hit me, we've grown up. And it's time to leave.

3. I love my chinkies. It's never a dull day with them. We laughed so much and did so many crazy things and I just love them to death. I just want to hug them and never let go. (Dear God, please let us all continue being a group. Please help us find time to meet and hang out, just like old times.)

4. I met Victor for beef stew (finally!!!!!) in town and we caught up (finally!!!!!!) and walked around and my stamina to shop SUCKS.

5. Met the bestest everest friend in the whole entire world for dinner. Walked from home to bishan and the walk was so therapeutic. It helped that it was my favourite time of the day- the time after a glorious sunset but before night falls. When the sky is a murky blue and street lights are yellow and everything is just in this perfect winter hue. Anyway we ordered mentaiko fries and IT WAS THE BOMBZZ I want more mentaiko fries now hahaha. After dinner we went to this platform by the stream and laid on our backs and watched the clouds gather and watched the lighting stretch across the sky and just basked in the comfortable silence. There really is no need for words. (I got about 10 mozzie bites tho HAHAHAHA)

6. Slept over at her place and everything was in it's usual familiarity. My second home, always.

7. Went for dinner with Teri at this lovely little cafe in Kovan and had greaaaaat food. Srsly super good OMG. The ambience and the staff were so good too. Lovely night :-))

8. My baby bro came home from Brisbane today and he is so cute. I mean like I always quarrel with him and all but he's so thoughtful and he really damn cute la. he got me nail polish and he said he asked the salesperson to "recommend a colour" hahahaha. And he bought my mom earrings and my other bro Skylanders and this hat with straws so you can drink without holding the cup and he bought my dad expensive chocolates and he got my maids kangaroo pens hahaha. Idk I can't wait for him to grow into a gentlemen.

9. It's 2am and I'm listening to worship music and I'm thankful for everybody who has been constantly pointing me back to Him. He is so so so faithful. :'))